Sin (circa 2000)

Sometimes, in the death of night, I awaken, to make sure your arms are there, tight, fingers playing me, even in dream, and when they're not...i laugh.

I'm evil, and alone, and I don't mind. I'll twist you, and use you, and hope to destroy you. Then I'll walk away, and I walk away.

Now I am the rapist, who is killing the gender. What joy I find in the tortured souls, who seek the unforgiving fullfillment of yesterdays fun.

Nestles in the bosom, of some unknown babe, they all die, frozen in their searches, the perfection of porn never came, and the children laugh.

Enthusiasm passes, as time tick-tocks away. The wrinkles invade the faces of youth, scorned by the dream never lived. Where did it all go? I'm evil, and alone, and I don't mind.

Ruptured by the second place finish, in the game we all played; unfairly. Sleeping next to them, hands held, dentures beside the bed.

Power of Salt (circa 2000)

Words like knives stab my brain
its your mouth profound
that reddens my veins
my ears drip of your tone
i taste the bitterness
of your tongue
please please
just leave me alone
as you hit me
you hurt me
you rape me
and then
your lips
absolutely destroy me
beaten to the blue
black to the bone
i take your truth
and lick my salt
they'll never know
what you say
when their robot minds pass
waving...
you move your hand
in the way of the world
as my cheeks burn
with your words
of love

A Night of Ecstacy (circa 2000)

This is four different poems I wrote one night....


Why do you
have to be you
why cant you
be me
then
it would be
so easy
to hate you



you risk
being strong
for vulnerabilities
sake
oh my God....
i love you,
and your weaknesses



never there
when i need you
always
when i dont
how do you obtain
such
perfect timing?
must be dumb
in yourself....
and
i thank you




see me
no me
i am
who i am
and
nothing more
but
full of surprises

Loving Demons (circa 2000)

Content in your confusion
and secure
in the unknown
God....
why did he create
such loving demons
such as yourself?

Eve: Goddess of Fate (circa 2000)

Oh
to peel the layers off
and taste
the ripe banana
in all
its naked glory

to let the juices
of the apple
drip
down my chin
so sweet
delerious
and tantalizing

and let the sting
of the orange
burst
inside me
is to be
satisfied

Comfort (circa 2000)

Velcro ripping
children laughing
moving water
shattering glass
zippers
birds
bells
swingsets
bed springs
apples
rain
thunder
hail
calm
keys
skin
lions
cameras
light switches
water sprinklers
telephones
wrapping paper
kool-aid stirring
perfume
air conditioners
bubble gum
SILENCE

old quotes circa 2000

"There will be a day when i figure out the truth about myself"

"There are those of us who lead; those who follow; and those who stand alone. The burden of which we are is a choice left only to us."

"If you feel you know the answer, you probably do."

""I don't know" is the slogan of a quitter. "I don't know yet" is the voice of success"

"It's ok to succeed when no one is looking."